Father's Day

Today was supposed to be a happy day.  Mikey was supposed to be smiling.  But..it's not a happy day..and Mikey is definitely not smiling!  For breakfast this morning I made Mikey Eggs Benedict.  It was my first time making it and I think it came out pretty yummy.  After moping around the house for a while..not really talking too much we headed down to the cemetery.  We needed to put some twine around the hydrangeas to keep them from drooping.  I had also been planning on giving Mikey his Father's Day gift there as well.  We sat down on Aidan's bench and I handed him his card and charm with Aidan's footprints on it.  It was harder than I thought it was going to be.  We sat together crying for a little while.  I realized, as I was hugging Mike and gazing into the woods..that he will never have a truly "happy" Father's Day.  It broke my heart to think that he will never be able to take Aidan out fishing on Father's Day, like his Dad always did with him.  I am praying everyday that I can give him more children to be able to experience a true fatherhood with..not just a grieving one.  Here is the charm that Mikey will now wear close to his heart everyday.   A Daddy of an Angel.