Thursday, September 29, 2011

6 Months Ago Today...

At this exact moment 6 months ago.. I was told I was going to deliver my son at only 22 weeks.  The doctor assured me he would be too small to survive.  I never gave up hope.  I wish I could have fought for him.  I wish I screamed until they helped him.  I was in shock..helpless.  But no more helpless than my precious son Aidan.  I will never understand why he didn't come home with me.  Why he'll never get a chance to sleep in his crib or wear all his clothes that hang in the nursery closet.  I am not angry with you God..just confused.  I know you cannot return him to me..but will you give me a piece of him?  Please bless me with his brother or sister.  Because I know that bond is stronger than any other.  I promise to teach him or her about you and never show anger towards you about Aidan.  I will teach him or her to sing to you and love you.  Please God.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Guess what.......

 Well.. You know Summer is officially over when I take off my string anklets I've made.  I've started to see the beautiful colors on the trees and people are decorating their front doors with scrumptious autumn wreaths!  Can you tell I love the fall?   It starts off with my Birthday...creeps to Halloween...and ends with a "Gobble Gobble" at Thanksgiving.  I am absolutely in love with the gorgeous colors and yummy smells of the fall season.

The girls and I trekked over to the Farmer's Market in town and tried some maple cotton candy...Mmmmm.  Can't you just taste it?  They were giving out free ice cream from our local ice cream hot spot.  And of course the girls couldn't pass that up!  We sampled some cheeses from a local farm and tried some stuffed grape leaves and rice pudding from one of the booths.  I grabbed some bagels for Mikey, that were fresh made that day and they smelled great!  After picking out some pumpkins for Aidan, we headed over to the cemetery...but.. "Nessa Nessa!" not before Erin got a picture in the cool tree trunk!

We each had a pumpkin..the girls and I.  Mine was the biggest then they got smaller 'til you reached Erin's. The four of us wrote our names on the pumpkins. Love, Mommy & Daddy.  Love, Grace.  Love, Brooke. And Love, Erin.  We placed them on Aidan's bench and wished him a Happy Fall.  I like that the girls visit him with me.  After all, he is a huge part of their lives.  One day we will bring his brother or sister there to visit. And that will be a beautiful day.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Grace's 13th Masquerade Party!!!

Grace accepted donations to March of Dimes instead of birthday gifts!

I made her a 2 tiered red velvet cake.
Cake Pops..chocolate & vanilla


Erin and Vanessa
Brooke, Kelly & Vanessa
Miranda & Vanessa
The shoe pile!
Brooke & Jillian


Grace & Kelly

What a party!!!