"It will happen when it happens?"

"Relax"... "Don't think about it"... "It will happen when it happens"  These are the words someone TTCAL does not want to hear.  I know people mean well when they say it..it just makes me crazy.   Believe me, I'm trying to relax..obviously it will happen when it happens..and how do you expect me to "really' not think about it?  Not think about what exactly?  The fact that we have been trying to bring a baby home for over two years or the fact that I held my infant son in my arms until his heart stopped beating?  I think about Aidan every second of everyday.  He was a part of me, and still is, and will be forever.  Therefore, the longing to bring his brother or sister into the world and into his or her Mommy and Daddy's arms is there stronger than anything.  I WILL get pregnant again..I just know this  The journey to that day is unfortunately a long and rough one.  I don't need someone to tell me this..I sometimes just need a silent hug or someone to tell me that they still love me regardless of my journey and what has happened along the way.

Curiouser and Curiouser.

 Last weekend we all took a trip down the rabbit hole for Erin's Wonderland Birthday Party!  I still can't believe she is 8 years old.  Time sure does fly!  I enjoyed every minute of the planning for this party.  As most of you know, I am a huge Alice fan.  I was thrilled when she told me that Wonderland was the theme she wanted to go with.

I printed out the invitations and rolled them, putting the small scroll into glass jars.  I added Read Me labels to get the true Wonderland feel.  The kids loved them!

I made 2 houses of cards and  banners of cards to serve as decorations.

After all of the girls arrived, we sat down to dinner.  The menu consisted of cucumber and cream cheese sandwiches, Peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, & Couscous salad.

                        To drink, the girls sipped on red punch.  Of course they were labeled  "Drink Me."

 

                                             Even the older girls couldn't resist the label!

                                    After dinner, Erin and the girls Painted the Roses Red!!

                                             Then it was "Pin the Grin on the Cheshire Cat"

A Wonderland Party wouldn't be right without a Tea Party!!!  The girls all sat down to Tea, "Eat Me" Cookies and Chocolate Hearts!!  Yum!!

My gift to the Birthday Girl!!  A Happy Birthday Tea Cup.

While at Tea, Tweedle Dee and Tweedle Dum hid all of Erin's Birthday presents!!  So...all the girls went on the search for them.  As they found each gift, Erin was to open it wear ever it lies.

In  the shower!!

In the refrigerator!!

On the trampoline!!

After all the presents were found, it was time for cupcakes and ice cream. And of course to sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Cupcakes by Bell's Cupcakes

Happy Birthday Erin!!!!!!

                                                                  Tea Party Lovelies!!

                                 
       And.... at the end of the night all the girls sat down to watch..what? .... Alice in Wonderland!!

It was a great time and the girls had so much fun.  They each went home with a "White Rabbit" made of white chocolate with a "Key" to the "Beautiful Garden" and an Alice in Wonderland Coloring Book.

The back of the favor.

Wear A Star Day!!

April 12th was Wear A Star Day!  A day dedicated to little stars in Heaven.  I wore my star for my son Aidan and many other stars for all the other babies and children taken too soon.

 Thank you to everyone who participated and wore a star for Aidan.. Here are some of the photos I took and some that people sent me..

Brooke

Grace

Erin

Brooke & Abby

Bella wearing her star for Aidan!!

Mikey (Aidan's Daddy)

Aidan's Aunti Miranda

Thank you Beth!!

Thank you Sue!!

Debi (Aidan's Nana)

Thank you Summer!!

I brought a star down to Aidan too.